Category Archives: Diary

Dispositional

Nothing makes it begin and nothing makes it end. But there has been a lull almost as perfect as an absence twice of late. At 00:11 on Thursday morning, seconds before I was about to be blanketed by my subconscious; … Continue reading

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Motionless movements

Today I have felt like an entity absolutely void of life, that moves without purpose from one place to the next. Some days I live in my head and not in my person. And tonight, I pray for my sleep … Continue reading

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The Bear

Sweet sweet sorrow, why do you let me cry. It is not the fine I seem to hear it is the rain. I am the bear who rocks in his cage, others enter and leave again. Exhausted by his own … Continue reading

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The inescapable pranoia of paranoia.

When people ask me, what are you scared of? I often reply with answers such as; earwigs, maggots or the dark. The kind of answers you’d expect really. The truth is,my fears run much deeper than just just being a … Continue reading

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First day back after Christmas… My normality confirmed.

So just to sum up yesterday; I became spontaneously neurotic and battled intermittent bouts of anxiety until the early hours. Sleep had become redundant and a deep and irrelevant level of serious doubt about the future set in. What is … Continue reading

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